34 Weeks

I thought I'd break tradition and write a blog post not in the middle of the night. :)

Today marks 34 weeks of pregnancy, and I'm feeling more and more ready every day. I've cleaned the apartment, washed what baby clothes we have, packed the hospital bag almost entirely, and made Gavin help me clean out the last of the boxes cluttering Zoey's room. Now, it's time to twiddle my fingers and hope I go into labor early. It may be a bad thing that I'm so okay with early delivery, but I figure, with medical technology what it is, and my genes how they are, everything will be fine, and I'd get to be a mommy that much sooner.

This morning when I woke up, I was almost surprised to see that the bassinet beside my bed had no baby in it, and that my belly is as big as ever. Zoey's movements are so restricted, and I keep telling her that there's much more room to play in the outside world, if she'd just come on out! Well, all in good time. I'm sure she'll come at the right time, and not my time, and I'm okay with that too.

I hope I can be a good mom. With Mothers Day coming up, I have been thinking a lot about the shoes I have to fill. It won't be easy, I know that. But I'll do my best, and with Gavin by my side, I know it will be an awesome experience.